Down the Rabbit Hole

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me and jorge are kind of back together!!
yesterday after school, i was walking with him and before i left i put my hand on his face, and kept walking. then after about 3 steps he ran up behind me, grabbed me, spun me around, and kissed me<3
then he told me that he loved me. so i guess were kind of back together. but he's not at school today..
is that a bad sign??

at least i have the memory of him kissing me to rely on until tomorrow.

jorge and i arent getting any better really. i suppose we're still friends, but its hard to tell with him. i went to try and see him after lunch...im just happy that he let me walk with him. and he talked to me...=] and when he went to open the door for me, and he kind of accidentaly touched my arm when he reached for the door...[how pathetic am i??] as cliche as it sounds, it was electric. =] maybe, hopefully, ill get another chance with him.
<3

its been like 5 day since i last added anything to my journal. ive been busy. we got progress reports yesterday-i did good except i got a 58 in history. =[ so thatmeans no modeling, no warehouse, no anything. ugh.
jorge and i are doing well though-thats always a good thing. he was in raleigh all last weekend and he bought me all this stuff for no reason...and somehow i have to get up to greenville this weekend so i can buy his birthday present...i have no clue what im going to get him though, and his birthday is in 9 days!!! oh well, i'll figure something out...
i need to pay attention in class now, maybe i'll write more later, but maybe not...

<3 kaitlin bridget. 

it's kind of weird writing in this blog, considering that most of the time i just write in my blog on myspace. but since myspace is blocked at school, i dont have anything else to do to occupy my time in this class [Business Law]. Jorge isnt here today. =[ i hate it when he doesnt come to school. my day already wasnt going to be very good, b/c "aunt flow" came to visit last night. i dont know if thats TMI or not, but its whatev. and then i got to school early this morning, so i could be sure to spend alot of time with him, but then he just didnt come. =[[
i made a 66 on my test in advanced functins and modeling, so my mom probably wont let me go to the warehouse tonight, which sucks b/c my preppy friend mallory, who cory thinks is hot, is supposed to go, and i think cory wants to go too. and of course Jorge would be there. plus, i just miss going to church. i feel weird not being able to go.
OMG!!! John Casablanca-this modeling agency that i have desperatly been trying to contact-called me back last night!! they told me there was an audition on thursday, but since they're located like an hour away from where i live, and since i didnt do good on my AFM test, my mom probably wont take me. =[ its effed up, because being a model is what i want to do with the rest of my life, and i dont really have anything else that i can even think of that i would enjoy doing...and if i could do good on the audition, who knows where that could take me?? i was so excited when they called me last night. then i thought about the fact that i probably wouldnt be able to get up there, and it depressed me...i'll let you know if i end up getting there though.
everytime i see cory he tells me that he needs to talk to me about something, but i have no clue what, because we never have time to talk about anything. i seriously think that we should have like, 10 minutes in between classes. its driving me crazy not knowing what it is. ughh.
well, i should stop complaining now, i have to order some petitions from peta2 so maybe the cafeteria will start supplying vegetarian food.

KaitlinBridget<3

p.s. did you guys know that february 13 is national suicide day?? the day before valentine's day?? how ironic!

This morning when I woke up, I just knew today was going to be a bad day. I wore my pajamas to school, just because I didn't feel like getting dressed. I sleep naked though, so technically I still had to get dressed, but it's whatever. When I got to school, I was so tired, and I didn't feel good. [i was P.M.S'ing so bad. =/ ] But Jorge made me feel better so yayy!! 
anyway, I'm going to go play with make-up now.
kbye.

<3kaitlin bridget.

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